I refuse

I'm not usually a big song lyrics person, but these word pretty much sum  up where I am in my walk with God right now. I listen to this over and over....

Sometimes I just want to close my eyes and act like everyone's alright when I know they're not,

This world needs God but it's easier to stand and watch. I could pray a prayer and just move on like nothing's wrong,

But I refuse.

I don't want to live like I don't care

I don't want to say another empty prayer

I refuse to sit around and wait for someone else to do what God has called me to do myself

I could choose not to move

But I refuse

I can hear the least of these, crying out so desperately and I know we are the hands and feet of You, oh God,

So if You say move, it's time for me to follow through and do what I was made to do and show them who You are,

I refuse to stand and watch the weary and lost cry out for help

I refuse to turn my back and try and act like all is well

I refuse to stay unchanged, to wait another day to die to myself

I refuse to make one more excuse

I refuse.